sucker for surprises

HIT: being bluffed by marcus... haha... I haven't had any surprise in a long time... I guess this is considered as one ba... :p

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对事不对人

feel

Pity does not look good on anybody's face... not on mine at least... I think... :s

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Something that I heard over the radio on class 95 at around 8.30pm..
"People never grow up. They just learn how to act in public."

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Something/someone that you thought you knew.... yeah... you "knew"... past tense..
disclaimer: generally speaking...

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Grateful Occurence Of the Day (GOOD... :p) : having the company of friends while studying :o thanks to yg, sm, jl, esther.. :p

spirit for free

In my opinion, I think most people tend to be sad when they try to be strong, when they don't believe themselves to be... ...
If you want to feel better, instead of staying sad, general solutions would be to really believe yourself to be strong, or do things to make yourself believe that you are stronger.


... During this pre-exam period, I've come to realize that, I do not really have any loyalty towards any group of friends. As in, I do not hang around any particular group for long.
This is not due to any arguments, misunderstandings, or boredom. It just happens.
As a result of this, ... (how do I say this? ...) ... I feel that my presence will not be missed. Thy do not ask me along for meals as I think that they assume that I'm eating with my other friends. They do not ask me along to study together as I think that they assume that I'm studying with my other friends. For my side, I do get kinda sad because I'm not included.. which i want to be.

I guess, not wanting to be bound by rules or regulations or commitments, has its side effects. ... ... Is it possible to do away with them.... the side effects?

sit down, sit down, and move it all around... :6 (M18)

Sweet Incident of The day (SIT) : remembering the first time when we touched.... :p haha!!

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The first times are the times which some or most of us treasure the most as we'll get hit full force by what we do not expect. During subsequent times, as we form our expectations towards similar situations, our emotions will get increasingly jaded towards good things, increasingly controlled towards bad things...

greatfull = gr eat full :8

HIT : working on the same tedious and difficult problem with friends for a few hours :8 ... :p

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Today, I feel grateful

• to this person, ZK, whom i barely knew a few days ago, whom I only exchanged a few words with. I talked to him as I saw him on my way to the toilet. He agreed to pass me his useful!! information on the same elective that we are taking... Rocks :o ... :p
• for being able to learn more about structures through the take-home quiz.
• for being able to see jolyn and marcus in the evening today, "scare" them and chit chatted with them :o
• to jy, candice and ql who lent me their notes to copy :o
  
• to everyone who treats me like a friend... haha......
• for warm sun rays, mcflurry, chocolate oatmeal cereal, my friends' and my laughter, silly ideas... :p

Just felt like posting up a photo for fun... :8

expectant perceptions

HIT - discussing and working through questions with friends :o

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Everybody have expectations.. of themselves and of others. Since a long time ago, either subconsciously or consciously, most of us have been trying to meet the expectations of others, as we see them more important than our own. To some of us, it may be easier to try to perform to the expectations of others as they are... there. Most of us do not know what we want, so we do not form any clear expectations for ourselves.
As this goes on, some of us have gotten used to expecting our expectations of others to be realized. If they are not met, we will be disappointed in others. Maybe it is due to the fact that some of us do try hard to meet the expectations of others, while expecting others to do the same. Or it might just be due to the fact that we expect others to meet our expectations.
No matter whether we like to meet our own expectations, or we like to meet the expectations of others, take note that, we, ourselves would prefer to have our own freedom in making decisions. We would not like to be imposed with the ideas of others. No matter how good or appropriate the idea may seem to the other person, it is still up to us to make the decision to whether we would want to try the idea out.

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"The problem with most people now, is that we tend to find the easy way out to find ppl.. We just stereotype and classify them... Dun set up any barriers between you and potential friends just because of assumptions you make.. Get to know them first, then decide for yourself ba.. Dun be lazy and take the easy way out to figure ppl :o Dun do it just because other ppl are doing it.. Set your own standards :o you dun have to be like the others :o"


"What is important to you is how you feel.. Only you know everything about yourself.. You can't blame other ppl for having their own different opinions about you because they dunno everything that happened to you.. Even if they know, they have experienced different lives and they have their own perceptions towards the same things.. Everybody have different mindsets... And, you cannot control their thinking.. So there's also no point in trying to change them... If you wanna feel better, just accept that everyone thinks differently.. And just work on your own part.. Dun let other people's doubt influence you.. Nothing can affect you unless you allow it to affect you... You can be even stronger :o"

-quoted from me :o

relaxing day

There's a reason for everything... and you're the one who decides on it! wahahaha! .... :s

An example would be.. When you're running along a path and someone moves away, it might be because that person thinks that you are smelly and dirty and don't want to get in contact with you. Or it might be because that person wants to give way to you.. You get to decide!

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Happy Idea of The day (HIT.... :p ) - sending perky msgs to my friends :o

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A reason for sad ppl to continue to be sad :o

idid

Finally!! ... I finished my report at around 1pm. If not for the 1 hr plus nap that I accidentally took at around 3 plus, and the 20 minute breakfast break, I would have been working continuously for 15 hours..... ..... :s Did I really work for that long? ... I think I must have took a few more breaks in between... scary.... :s

After the report, I decided to reward myself by allowing myself to go to the pool to tan and sleep. Luckily, it rained. ... The lucky part was that I was helping my sister to run errands so i had not boarded the train to yck... :p

Then I decided to shop at the supermarket. At the start, all I wanted to buy was cornflakes and milk, because i haven't had this breakfast for a few months. Then, after walking through a few more aisles, my whole basket was full! .. This was not the scariest part. The scariest part was that the cost exceeded my expectations by $20 :s I guess I was too engrossed in stocking up foodstuff which would help me to survive through the revision period. E.g. coffee, green tea, milk, yogurt, chips, listerine and a few more other stuff. I bought berry essence from brands.. Think this carried quite a heavy weightage of my expenditure :s I wanted to try it because.... I haven't tried it before :o



I think I should have taken out the plastic bags before I took photos of them.. :/

happy dump

Sometimes, loneliness can strike even more harshly when you're around people you know.. It's the feeling of being around them, and, realizing that you're not with them.

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If i want something, I'll give it to someone else.. This way, I'll know that i have it... Hmmm... An example would be that, if I want company, I'll give my company to someone. Or if I want attention/care and concern, I'll shower someone else with attention/care and concern... Or if I want love, I'll shower someone with my love..
You have to have something before you can give it away :o

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haha... I was just doing some thinking on the train, and realized that.. Some time during the start of this year, I began to have this mind set. Whatever that happens to me, I'll take it that it is what i wanted for myself. So that I will become the person I want to be. E.g. when i have to wait a long time for my transport, when relationships or friendships are in trouble, and how I react to them, etc....

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Anyway, this video was taken one or two years back... If I remembered correctly, I think this happened after I told mj or jr to wake me up if I fall asleep during any lecture.. :p

frozen turkey

I will have to go cold turkey, for bleach. Otherwise, I will not be able to get much things done... :s

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I was quite shocked when I saw on the NS portal that I only have to run under 10.41 mins to get a grade A for my 2.4km for IPPT. I was happy for a while before i saw at the bottom that, I have to run under 10.00 mins to get gold for IPPT... :s